Now This Is Funny!!!!

I think it is important to laugh...and I know that it is good for the soul... so here is a laugh for today... hehe. Don't worry- we know Batman and Superman are cool and manly. But they are so manly that they can handle this mockery of sorts...I am trying to decide if Batman is putting on a "I am so cool!" look or if he is thinking, "Hey, who is touching my cherished cape?" Maybe Superman is just straightening it for him? Anyway, life is good and it is good to laugh. 

A Different Perspective on Life

After losing my brother, almost a month ago, I have thought a lot about things in life. And how even more so now, what is really important to me. 

I am also even more so grateful for all the blessings that I have and the experiences I have had. It has made me who I am, good or bad, and I hope that I will slowly but surely learn from my mistakes in my life and move onward and upward. Because for sure I want to be able to see my brother Jason again. And I hope I am worthy to do that. I know you should never do the "I wish I had done this...or been more compassionate about that..." because there is a reason he had to leave our earthly family for now. But I do pray hard that he can forgive me. I just feel that I didn't handle the situation the best way at times. And I know he had that terrible disease and that I didn't understand what he went through a lot of times...but I could have done better.  Love you, Jase. I feel you near me a lot. And I know you are okay now and don't have to deal with all that stuff anymore. And I am so happy for you. But we will never stop missing you. 

Ah, young love!

Spring is in the air! More updates to come... the engagement date, the wedding date, etc.

I Love Rain

Just nice to be home and warm and hear it falling on the roof and the streets. 

It makes the grass look emerald green. The flowers drink it up and show off their pretty colors, but then again the little worms have to high-tail it out of the grass so they don't drown.

I figure it is a free car wash for my car!  

The rain reminds me of Vancouver where I grew up.

It cleans everything up and gives us a new start on a lot of things.

Plus it also makes me feel nostalgic and I have been feeling that way a lot lately. Especially the last 3 weeks. Hi Jase. Been thinking about you non-stop. Love you so much it hurts sometimes.

Happy rainy day! Happy Eeyore day!

Butterfly Kiss

My mom shared with us today that on Sunday, April 5, one day after Jason passed on, during one of the few minutes we weren't with her, she felt a strong energy right next to the chair she was sitting in. And she felt a fluttering on her left cheek. She feels strongly that it was Jason. A kiss from the other side. 

I know it was you, Jason. I am glad you were there to comfort mom before you had to move on.

Love you, Bumper! 

I'm Safe From Layoffs

I made it through work layoffs.

I am sad for those that did get laid off.

Apparently my brain is gone...

I meant to say, "With the passing of my brother LAST week". Anyway, I will miss him terribly! I am sad that some people who read my blog don't know the real Jason. I am glad I do. 

Love you, Bumper!

Just a hard time...

My brother's sudden passing next week, feeling guilty that I got angry with him and frustrated with him, and stressed about him so much. And knowing I should have treated the situation with my sweet brother a little better. Yes he did have an addiction, but that is NOT all he was. He had a disease- I think even worse than cancer- and he tried so hard to overcome it. He has a huge heart and the funnest sense of humor. Yes, he did frustrate us a lot that he was not living up to his inborn potential...and he had a lot!!!  But he also has a kind and good soul. He is a great person and he will leave a HUGE hole in my heart forever. I am so grateful I have the gospel in my life and that I know the plan of salvation and that our Savior died for each one of us so that we could repent and try to be better each day and also be able to be resurrected and live together again. And I so want to see Jason again. I hope he knows that. And Jason, never worry that we won't forgive you...instead, please forgive me! I could have handled things better. I know this. I hope that I can get over my silly faults and maybe care about others a little more. Not take things so seriously. And always remember the joy Jason brought into our lives. I know I will continue to talk to him a lot. I know he is busy with other work though but I also know he is aware of our family. I have a 6'4" angel watching over me along with my cute dad who is 6'. Tall angels who love me are good! 

A Easter Hunting We Will Go....

Let's find some Easter eggs!!! Surely there are lots of eggs to be found. 12 for each of the kids!

Bumper, you are always in my heart.

Thanks for making me laugh. Thanks for trying so hard. Sorry that it was so hard on you. I will forever miss you. I love you so much. And I know dad is taking care of you. I just wish you didn't have to leave so soon. There was so much for you to do. My forever Bumper. I know I will see you some day again. Watch over us with Dad. Every day I will miss you. And I know I will cry because I can't talk to you anymore on this earth.