My mom shared with us today that on Sunday, April 5, one day after Jason passed on, during one of the few minutes we weren't with her, she felt a strong energy right next to the chair she was sitting in. And she felt a fluttering on her left cheek. She feels strongly that it was Jason. A kiss from the other side.
I know it was you, Jason. I am glad you were there to comfort mom before you had to move on.
My brother's sudden passing next week, feeling guilty that I got angry with him and frustrated with him, and stressed about him so much. And knowing I should have treated the situation with my sweet brother a little better. Yes he did have an addiction, but that is NOT all he was. He had a disease- I think even worse than cancer- and he tried so hard to overcome it. He has a huge heart and the funnest sense of humor. Yes, he did frustrate us a lot that he was not living up to his inborn potential...and he had a lot!!! But he also has a kind and good soul. He is a great person and he will leave a HUGE hole in my heart forever. I am so grateful I have the gospel in my life and that I know the plan of salvation and that our Savior died for each one of us so that we could repent and try to be better each day and also be able to be resurrected and live together again. And I so want to see Jason again. I hope he knows that. And Jason, never worry that we won't forgive you...instead, please forgive me! I could have handled things better. I know this. I hope that I can get over my silly faults and maybe care about others a little more. Not take things so seriously. And always remember the joy Jason brought into our lives. I know I will continue to talk to him a lot. I know he is busy with other work though but I also know he is aware of our family. I have a 6'4" angel watching over me along with my cute dad who is 6'. Tall angels who love me are good!
Thanks for making me laugh. Thanks for trying so hard. Sorry that it was so hard on you. I will forever miss you. I love you so much. And I know dad is taking care of you. I just wish you didn't have to leave so soon. There was so much for you to do. My forever Bumper. I know I will see you some day again. Watch over us with Dad. Every day I will miss you. And I know I will cry because I can't talk to you anymore on this earth.