Thursday, March 4, 2010

11 months today

Wow- 11 months since Jason had to leave us. Just so strange. It will always be so. Sometimes it seems like he is off on a trip of some sort. An adventure. Which he is. But that he will come back any day now. Which he can't. And then sometimes it seems like it has been forever since I have hugged or pinched him. Or laughed together at some silly comment or event that was happening.

Jase, I know you are cheering that BYU ran over Utah last night. 20 point win. I love you, Bumper. I miss you. Keep going in your goals and we will be at the temple together as a family in a month. Bring Dad along. I know he wouldn't miss it. I always pictured you at the temple with us someday. All in white contrasting against your beautiful, warm brown skin. Your dark curls coming a little over your white collar. I pray that when we do your work that I will feel your presence there with us and feel your joy. I think it will be an amazing day. Every time I picture you in white at the temple, I picture a soft white glow around you. That you are finally complete. Finally happy. Finally content. I hope that you allow me to feel that in my heart that day. You have a huge spirit. You always have. So I can't imagine not feeling that way that day.

You know I love you, your sister Lori (who misses you so much)

5 comments:

Jenn said...

I shouldn't have read this post at work, because now I am sitting at my desk with tears in my eyes. Thanks for such a sweet and touching post about your brother. I can't wait to read about the day you take him to the temple. What a wonderful thing to contemplate! I'm sure it will be an amazing experience. I still miss you at the temple too! I hope I can get there on a Thursday night again to visit.

Carrick Family said...

As time passes, it's hard to remember little things about them, and you still will always miss him.
I hope next month when you go through the temple that you will be able to know he is there.

The Tregeagles said...

Thanks for this. Gives me hope in lots of areas of my life. Appreciate your uplifting spirit and kind heart that is bursting with every bit of grace imaginable.

Laura said...

This is beautiful, Lori. I'm looking forward to reading about your experience at the temple. I'm sure your brother is excited!

Heather said...

Beautiful post . . .